Shortcomings

I made some serious thinking after a good friend of mine (Pato) told me that I have changed in a not so good way... They noticed at home that I became grouchy this summer and that I was irritable. Reflecting on what she said, I came to realize that I was not able to release properly my frustrations and depressions of what happened at work but instead "handled" them by acting "strong". I don't usually tell Pato what happened at work coz I don't want to bother her anymore of anything about my concerns. But it turned out that the more I wanted to shield her from my pains, the more I hurt her. She didn't understand me coz I didn't let her to. And worse, my being grouchy became my way of "handling" things. They got scared of me that they don't talk to me as much as before.

But I'm glad that today they were able to open up with me in a nice way that I didn't get offended. The truth hurts.. But accepting it and doing something about it will make things easier for me.

I'm not perfect and I will never be.. I will still have my grouchy moments and mood swings too. But I'll do my best to be more open, patient and understanding especially here at home.. I may have not so good day at work but they don't deserve to be my shock absorber.

I'm sorry for all my shortcomings. Thank you for being there. I hope you don't give up on me.