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I can't really explain how I feel with everything that has been happening. Just when I thought that things are going well, some more things happen to test my strength.

I may have smiled and laughed at a lot of things, but deep in me I'm just as broken as most of you are. I just want simple things in life but it seems like it is so hard to make things simple like how I wanted them to be.

But like the usual me, I never lose hope cause hope is all I have.

While I was on my work this morning, after I made the sign of the cross after passing in one of the 4 churches I pass by everyday, I just all of a sudden prayed and uttered to myself "all I want is for someone to take care of me, I'm tired na po." And after that I felt light.

People who really know me always tell me that I'm a person for others. Seldom do I consider myself in my decisions, I always think of what is best for the others. That I'm willing to sacrifice all i can just for others to have enough, for others to be happy, for others burden to be light, for others to be more comfortable, for others to be hopefully contented. Then those people who really know me keep on reminding me that I should also give something to myself. But the thing is, I'm happy being able to make others happy cause there are more happy people, not just me.

I think what I have written here is so far already from the title of this blog. I just got so random cause for now, these are my THOUGHTS AT THE SPUR OF THE MOMENT.