So I have NO right to just play and rest! When the househelp is not here, I'm the one who should take her place! BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wanna go home.. to my real home.. where I'm treated well and given the respect I think I truly deserve.
I wanna cry.. but even that I can't do cause it may mean showing weakness on my part. But the truth is I'm just really hurt.. so much! I can't even believe I have lasted this long being treated like this by this one person! And who does she think she is?! The boss of all the bosses?!
I'll be most glad to come back to my real home once my brother and I have finalized things up. I used to think so much of this foster family I have been with for years. Considering their situation is what make me hold on and not leave. I still owe them a lot and I will always be indebted on how they have welcomed me in their house. But I think things change and people show their real color when all I was and still is the same person the first time I stepped into this place. I just wanna think that things without me in this place will be better since they will be able to find someone they can boss around to do things here. Or they will be more independent enough to do things by themselves. I have humiliated myself and made myself feel so inferior of them when I know to myself I'm not like what they or particularly HER think I am.
I think it is not too late to regain my self confidence and my self respect the soonest I can get out of here! And when that time comes, all I wish for this family is the best of life has to offer for them.
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>:D< this may seem weird but I kinda know how u feel... i mean, mine's probably worse coz my own family's doing it to me... i dunno how i can help but i hope that u knowing that u'r not alone in this can help u feel better... i'll always be here, just hope u know that...
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