Decisions... Choices..

Decisions are needed to be made and usually there are choices that go with it.

Lately I've been putting a lot of people down including myself.

I said no to an invitation to go to a friend's house..

I made the one person always there for me feel worthless cause I tried to hold back and not show how I really feel..

I'm at the point of giving up one of my best friends..

I feel like I am not giving my best in everything I do.. I haven't submitted my inventory report and lesson plan.. I'm missing the 2 CDs given by our Tissue Culture consultant.. I have piles of unchecked submitted homeworks and seatworks.. I have 4 recommendation forms that are unaccomplished.. I have not filled up the PEF folders of 13 GSP students in my 2 classes.. And I dunno what other things I need to accomplish.. *sigh*

Going back to my title.. decisions.. choices..

I'm thinking of going back home.. to the place where I am respected and loved.. I'm on the fast forward phase of losing my self esteem to where I'm currently staying. I know I have a lot of things to consider, people to keep in mind. I'm aware too of the pros and cons once I make my decision. At the moment, I'm still really undecided. I'm still looking and hoping for the brighter side of things, but I know I need to decide soon.. make my choice.. maybe another week.. Then I'll asses the situation and make my decision.

So for now.. I'll think.. wait.. hope.

I was sent home

I was already happy when I got pass through the temperature checkpoint in school. I don't have fever and they didn't ask if I have cough or colds. So when the person who checked nodded for me to go in, I smiled at her.

But when I went to the Personnel's office to have my off-campus signed, the lady who is to sign my form asked me something. She got surprised with my voice and asked me to go to the clinic. And the rest was history.. hahaha!

I don't really want to miss work cause I have tons of things to do. I brought home some of them so I wouldn't miss much.. But I'm more worried about my classes.. *sigh*

I got to chat with one of my college friends and he reminded me that "tao ka!" when I told him that I want to go to work. He himself just got well from flu and was absent from work for 5 days. He asked me if I'm taking vitamins and I said I'm lazy to drink med in general and his one word reaction.. "LOKA!" We ended our chat hoping that we'd soon see each other together with our other batchmates.

So how did I rest today? I finished in less than an hour my latest 204-piece puzzle. I hope to have it framed soon!.. Surf the net.. Eat dalandan and macaroni salad given by mk.. Listen to music.. Chat.. Text.. and sleep.

Tomorrow will be another day of boredom.. but I have my work to keep me company.. a call, text and other means for you to contact me will be really appreciated.

Rain

My friend and I were talking last night about the rain.. how it makes her sad and alone and lonely.. how it makes me feel so many kinds of emotion depending on my mood.

But right now, I blame the rain why I'm not feeling well.. =(

Anyway, going back to our conversation. When my friend again asked what is my perfect rain scene.. here's my reply..

I'm in a cabin and there's a hammock by the porch where I'm seated.. rain is falling to the sea.. wind is blowing my hair.. but I forgot to mention to her that with me in the hammock is my special someone.. We are hugging and just talking about anything. (It's not that obvious that I'm a hopeless romantic.. hehe..=p )

Rain...