Wrong send...

It's not really our intention that at times we get to send a message to someone else. Then we send another message saying sorry for the wrong send message. In my case, it happened 3 times to the same person and the message is something that this person gets annoyed? or jealous? or I don't know.. hay...*sigh*

I don't want to promise that this won't happen again. But I'll do my best to be more careful next time.

Something Light and Hopeful..=)

Just when I was about to log out my plurk and facebook account early this morning, around 1 a.m., my attention was caught when Ducky just plurked and Pato is online in facebook. I instantly exchanged plurk with Ducky and chatted with Pato in facebook. But it was also Ducky who is in Pato's facebook so I signed in again in my ym account. And there Pato and I chatted. By the way, they are in Chicago that's why I got so excited when I finally saw them online.

Pato and I chatted about some stuff like her gaining weight cause the food there is really good. Me gaining weight cause I got sick for a week and I eat more when I'm sick. We also talked about her chasing her childhood dreams there when we get rich. We are going to have a house there and stay there for good since the lifestyle there is nice. (I used the word "there" 3x in that previous sentence.. hahahaha). We also talked about her mom and her friend.

I'm glad to have chatted with Pato and plan a bit of the future.. Something to be more hopeful about. =)

Getting Tired.. but still not giving up...

Time comes that we get tired..

Tired of the routines we do..

Tired from the mountain of work needed to be done..

Tired of waiting..

Tired of fighting..

Tired of talking about the same thing over and over again..

Tired of holding on..



I hope though that I will still have enough strength to do these things I'm getting tired of..

For the one's important to me..

For the one's I truly love..

I will still keep hanging on.. and still not giving up..

Wondering...

I'm just wondering when I'll have an entry that will be like light or happy..

I'm not saying that I'm completely sad and low.. I can still manage to smile and laugh my heart out..BUT..

But I feel so confused.. uncertain.. hurt and other negative emotions I can no longer put into words.. I can't even put into details why I feel this way.. I do know why.. can't just put them into words.

Funny as it may seem.. I'm so "talkative".. I always have something to say.. but now.. I don't know.

I am wondering when I can finally figure things out.. I mean, have the proper words to explain why I feel those sad emotions..

One thing is certain.. I can't have everythng I want.. When I thought I'm holding on so strong.. the one I'm holding on to has a "feeling" of letting me go.. ='(

Things are getting more depressing..

There are 4 people who matter so much to me and currently somehow the cause of my being really sad.. but I know that it's not gonna be like this always..

Kitty.. she's in the states right now and I miss her so much!

Dama.. she has hurt me so much! and I dunno until when I can stay really mad at her, but what she has done is something that I never thought she can do to me.

Ate.. things are getting really challenging for us right now. But rest assured, I will never leave you nor let go of you.. I believe that FOREVER holds true for our friendship, our sisterhood.

MK.. we can't have everything we want but we can be happy and contented with what we have.

I'm hoping for things to get better and I'm looking forward to that.. But now I know this things that are happening have to be dealt with. And it may take a really lllllllllllooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg time for some of these sad things to be better. But I guess it's really like that.