Good - Bad

Lately i get some complements and also some not so good comments from different people.. Here they are and my reactions to them...

Good points...

1. I'm pretty/beautiful.. wow.. such nice words to say to someone like me.. I never thought of myself as such..

2. I'm thoughtful.. well, it's just but natural to care for those we love.. =)

3. I'm HOT?! - what?- huh? - how?

4. My eyes are my asset, they sparkle when I smile - aww.. how sweet.. but i guess it's just the make-up and the mascara.. yun lang yun.. hehe..

5. I work well - i love my work.. i'll continue to give my best to this vocation i've chosen.. =)

Not so good points...

1. I'm grouchy most of the time - ummm.. I just react on how you guys treat me.. but please don't give me the impression that i don't have the right to react that way.. you just don't have any idea how it hurts to be belittled or be ignored or be not given the full information.. I'm easy to get along with just as long as you treat me right.

2. I'm fat - oh well lolo, i'm going to be thin again soon.. hehe..

3. dense - ouch! to the person who said this.. wait till i prove you wrong.. I think you don't know me well that's why you were able to utter such hurtful word.. but FYI, you just made me stronger by saying that.. thanks..

4. Maarte - i'm me and i can't change my voice, i won't change my style of clothing and hair.. i don't intend to please everybody coz I know i can't.. so to those who say i'm maarte.. live with it!


Now, with those things, I hope no one sees me as someone who should be put into the pedestal, coz I don't think I deserve it.. I'm far from being perfect.. All I can be is ME. To those who accept me and love me nonetheless, thank you so much. I know who you are and you are all so precious to me.

First Day - School Year 2008-2009

First day for the school year 2008-2009.... I don't have class.. haha!!

• I woke up 4:45 (dapat 4:30.. hehe)
• Was with Ms. Lana on the way to school.. She told me their observations about me last Friday during the Kick-off.. Hahaha.. It's really not in my personality to be sweety in front of everybody, kahit acting lang!.. hahaha!
  
• Got to school 5:45.. gosh.. I'm the 1st who arrived of all the high school faculty.. di naman ako excited, just really nervous to sing in front of the students.
• 7:00am.. assembly of students... I was just at the back muna...
• 7:15am.. start of the flag ceremony.. I was in front already together with some teachers who will sing the O.B. Montessori Mission/Vision (waaahhh.. I was really nervous.. my hands were cold and my stomach hurt!)
• Introduction of teachers.. I'm now officially NOT the Science Department OIC.. It's sad but also relieving.. I'd really rather teach than get stock in doing more paper works.
• 7:45 - 10:30 - I just stayed in the faculty room, answering the phone. Parents and guardians asking for the dismissal time of their children. In between, I went to the Academic Office to print some requirements for summer.. (sana ma-clear na kami). Also, I started working already on my Lesson Plan..
  
• 10:30-ish - 10:55-ish - talked to Chesca, Nick, William and Jane..
  
• 11:00 - 11:45 - lunch with Mrs. Canet, Ms. Cascasan and Mrs. Datu-Ramos... Omg! I forgot to get my change!!! We primarily talked about our experiences when we were observed by our superiors... But I wasn't really able to share coz I so far never had any untoward incident related to being observed..
• 11:45 - 3:00 - just in the faculty room - still answering the phone, working on my lesson plan, writing on the cover page of other teachers' Lesson Plan, Class Record, Anecdotal Record, Daily Class Evaluation Notebook, Attendance Record...
• 3:00-3:15 - I ate snacks (pancit) by myself at the 4th floor satellite cafe.. Kuya Jun, It's good to have you back!
  
• 3:15-4:00-ish - Went on in doing my Lesson Plan
• 4:00-ish - 4:30-ish - talked to Jane, Medwin, Anton and William.. but they eventually left Jane..
• 4:30-ish - went down with Jane.. but when we reached the lobby, Julia, Jessica, Kim and Marilag went to me and started telling me how quiet their class was coz Angelo is no longer there, Lee was absent, Kim was transferred to C.. (Sorry Jane if I didn't get to talk to you more before leaving)
• Out of OBMCI, I passed by the Post Office and asked how much Pato's mail costs.. Its 143 g = P273...
  
• 5:45 - Home at last.. Mommy Goose was surprised I was early.. I am too... hehe.. but this is the good thing of starting early.. We get to go home early too..

Tomorrow will be my day.. Get ready 2A, 2B and 2C..

Shortcomings

I made some serious thinking after a good friend of mine (Pato) told me that I have changed in a not so good way... They noticed at home that I became grouchy this summer and that I was irritable. Reflecting on what she said, I came to realize that I was not able to release properly my frustrations and depressions of what happened at work but instead "handled" them by acting "strong". I don't usually tell Pato what happened at work coz I don't want to bother her anymore of anything about my concerns. But it turned out that the more I wanted to shield her from my pains, the more I hurt her. She didn't understand me coz I didn't let her to. And worse, my being grouchy became my way of "handling" things. They got scared of me that they don't talk to me as much as before.

But I'm glad that today they were able to open up with me in a nice way that I didn't get offended. The truth hurts.. But accepting it and doing something about it will make things easier for me.

I'm not perfect and I will never be.. I will still have my grouchy moments and mood swings too. But I'll do my best to be more open, patient and understanding especially here at home.. I may have not so good day at work but they don't deserve to be my shock absorber.

I'm sorry for all my shortcomings. Thank you for being there. I hope you don't give up on me.

Balele, Tanauan Batangas Fiesta

June 7, 2008 - Kuya and I agreed that we meet in Jollibee Buendia at 6am. But as usual, he didn't follow the time we first set. I was about to leave the house when he texted that he just woke up!!! So as not to ruin a nice Saturday morning, I just decided to write a blog while waiting for time to pass.

When at last we saw each other in Jollibee (they arrived there first and even told me I was late!.. thick face.. hahaha!!!) we had first our breakfast (I had my fave longganisa meal, large pineapple juice without ice) and chatted bout his Galera outing. When we were all set, we then went in the bus. After like 5 minutes of "boarding", we left already. While in the bus with an unknown seatmate, I was accompanied by Mychal and Jane through text (although i fall asleep once in awhile that made me reply late to their texts, sorry guys).

When we arrived in Tanauan, Kuya and I looked for BPI to check if we have our salary already.. And after finding one and withdrawn some money, we went to Red Ribbon to buy a cake we gave to Tita Precy. Then we bought flowers for mama and candles. We then visited her and said a little prayer and "talked" to her. I miss my mom so much!!!!

At last at Tita Precy's house.. we gave respect to our titos and titas by pagmamano.. and kissed our cousins. It was so nice to see a videoke machine and since we are really a "singing" clan, we sang our hearts out! hahaha! And since it was fiesta, there are a lot of food and very yummy at that! I first controlled what I eat coz I know we will still be visiting other relatives and will be "required" to eat. True enough, every house we went to, I had to explain that they don't have to prepare food for us since we are full already (at least I was) from the 2nd house we went (Ate Lyn's). I ate a lot of steamed fish that I like so much and drank a glass of concentrated pineapple juice! I was craving for ice cream though that in every house we went I told them that I'll eat if they have ice cream.. hahaha! (i was hyper coz of my being so full and I became thick faced too.. hahahah!) We stayed long in Tita Belen's house and chatted with Kuya Valdwin.

We were all sweaty from walking from house to house. Our last stop was at Tito Ikoy's house... It was really fun playing with Kian and ZL. Back at Tita Precy's house, we freshen up and fixed our baon. Our cousins were sad that we had to leave and not stay for the night.

Looking back, the entire visit was real fun except the bye part. We promised though that we will still visit them another occasion that will come.

My Summer 2008

Summer 2008 is now "officially" over... I'm both sad and excited on its implication... Sad because the "real" work is about to start and for the same reason, I'm also excited.. (am I making any sense?.. hehe)

But how was my summer 2008? It was GREAT for a lot of reasons!!!

1. I still can't believe till now that I was able to go out of the country at the start of the summer vacation.. to the entire Bird Family, my sincerest gratitude!

2. Summer classes.. handling grade 6 and Year 1 summer classes was a real challenge and frustrating at times, but it was definitely another learning experience for me. And to the students of batch 1 & 2 of the orientation class, welcome to the Montessori Family!

3. To my "ate" and the her 3 cousins (Joseph, Vanessa and especially RJ) thanks for making my summer extra special. Having new friends and knowing more my "ate" surely made my summer unforgettable.

4. Moro Gym.. it was also fun seeing familiar faces while working out and trying to lose weight (which I hope I did even just a little.. hehe). And what made it great was seeing Chris Tiu (wwwwwaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!)

5. Subic Outing was real fun! Going to Palan Shrine really made us burn some fats. Marketing for our meals in Olongapo market was fun.. [i miss going to the market though with my mom.. =( ]. At the corsair house.. preparing the ingredients, cooking, eating, washing the dishes made us all feel at home (the bulalo and bicol express were really good! The ampalaya con carne was superb!). The most fun part is the videoke till we fall asleep and another videoke session in the morning that became our exercise. To everyone who joined in the Subic outing, I'm so glad to have spent May 24-25 with you!

6. Summer Sports fest.. GO GREEN TEAM!!! It was really fun to be playing again the sports I love so much and winning made me love the game even more.. Mighty Green Team was unbeatable! The Max's packed lunch was great to share with all the members of this great team!

7. And to top all these, to the person who was able to see more of me and loved me just the same, you are the reason why my summer is far greater than all my summers... thanks a lot!